When I am performing, I am thinking too much about what I am doing, and how to keep it interesting, to really enjoy myself. While I love my job, it is still all really just an act. Does anyone here really get turned on by it all?
Some days I do really get turned on and others it is just an act to pay the bills. I find that certain clients make the job a little easier than others. 🙂
No, I’m not, really. I have a way of blocking out the idea that I am enjoying it. I am totally into the performance. Since it is a performance, I am not really enjoying it as I would if it were “real”.